Stutter

I'm feeling really gone, need to think some things out. I'm not gonna get into it, but things are feeling really hard again, don't know how much I can take. I'm not a poet, I don't intend to be, but I need something now.

"I'm sitting down
In the corner of the room
I reach out for words
A breath of reason
But I stop
And remember the sound
Walk away the first time
The last time

Catch me in a drowning haze
Stuttering senses
Stuck on every word
Do it now, Do it now, Do it now
Every mistake another step
Yellow fades to grey
Colors so sour and sick
Push me, push me, push me again..."